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Monday, March 17, 2014
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
Week 31: Marching On
| viva Florence! |
I must say, though, Heavenly Father has been doing a
great job keeping us alive this week. Last night, we had a half hour
bike ride home in the dark. One particular street had a long stretch of
no houses, no streetlights, just trees and swamp on either side of the
road, and no moon, not even starlight could reach us. For ten minutes,
we were riding into a pitch black abyss, only thing visible was the few
feet in front of our that our bike lights could reach. It was like a
fever dream nightmare, or a creepy movie or something, like biking into
outer darkness itself. I had the thought, maybe this is what death is
like. I started singing Lead Kindly Light to distract myself from
thoughts of things that could be hiding in the woods, and it was oddly
fitting. "Lead kindly light amid the encircling gloom... The night is
dark and I am far from home... Lead thou me on... I do not ask to see,
the distant scene, one step enough for me." And for some odd reason,
not a single car appeared those whole ten minutes. If one had, we could
have easily been knocked into a ditch and left to perish. But we
didn't. Conclusion: more angels.
| The District kickin it at Chinese buffet |
| It didn't got build, guys. |
The G family is still stellar, and we took a member
over there who happened to know the dad! He and her son had been good
friends. It worked out so perfectly, and he'd actually done research
(on lds.org not wikipedia!
:D) and had questions about the Plan of Salvation. I love talking about
the Plan, because I feel like most people go their whole lives looking
for the purpose of everything, the meaning of life, and we have it
summed up in one lil pamphlet. We stopped by the S family to buy girl
scout cookies from their several daughters and they insisted we stay for
dinner, so (with the slandering father not present), we got to share a
message with them, about God's love and how the gospel blesses families -
basic stuff. Next time we go over, we'll go deeper into the
Restoration. Baby steps.
| one of our investigators is a professional clown. tru story. |
None the less.
8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
16 For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day.
| bookmark I made for a recent convert |
Sincerely,
Sister Valdez
Monday, February 24, 2014
Week 30: Angels and Agnostics
I don't think I've ever had much reason to believe in angels, prior to
my mission. I mean, I believed it when other people talked about their
experiences with souls on the other side, but since I've been in the
field I've had occasion to speculate that much of God's work gets done
here by the faithful spirits, either pre-earth or post-mortal, that aid
the Holy Ghost in all his guiding and prodding and whispering.
Firstly, this last week was our first full bike week.
It's quite an adventure. We've been chased by dogs a few times, and
hollered at by some hicks in a truck - they said "Do a trick!" to my
companion and she pointed to her skirt-biking self and said "This is a
trick!" then when I came by they said "Hey what're ya'll sellin?" and I
shouted back "Happiness!" In other news, I don't weigh any less from it
(i.e. still 10lb heavier than when I left home) but I'm fairly sure
I've got way more leg muscle than I've ever had. We biked over 15 miles
last Friday and if it weren't for some sort of divine help we probably
would have given up or died, considering half that ride was on a
backwood highway at night where there are no sidewalks or road shoulders
and the wind was freezing, but there was this great moment where we
paused for breath and I looked up between the rows of thick woods and
there were even more stars than usual, Orion's constellation far clearer
than I've ever seen. These lines of course came to mind... "I see the
stars, I hear the rolling thunder, thy power throughout the universe
displayed." How great Thou art, indeed.
Secondly, it's been an excellent week for finding.
Sister Creager is hardcore about the 7 hours of tracting per week, so
we've made knocking neighborhoods a high priority. The new mindset is
quality over quantity when it comes to investigators, and with all this
finding, we've come across several potentials and can more easily pick
and choose the ones with most promising first reactions.
2. Old Joe. He's been to many churches, he said,
and could never find one that would satisfy or answer his questions,
which he takes to God often and waits as long as it takes to be
answered. He said something about our smiles, something he could see in
us, and let us tell him a story about a boy in a similar
situation...and with his same name. He thanked us sincerely for staying
and talking with him (usually the other way around) and expressed
desire to come to our church, one he hasn't tried yet, and when we left
we realized he'd been slightly intoxicated - regardless, I sensed that
there were moments he could feel the Spirit getting through to him that
what we shared was something valuable and I'm 90% convinced the two
deceased relatives he mentioned had something to do with it.
4. The S household. Initially, we'd gone because
the father had said we could return. He's a Jehovah Witness, but
doesn't even believe everything they believe, and our appointment with
him ended up being a 2 hr lecture on the "two-sided research" he'd done
on Joseph Smith and basically had a list of reasons why he couldn't be a
prophet (yes, by including both understandably true and ridiculously
untrue things he'd read about from questionably legitimate sources) all
of which, I believe I could have easily rebutted by pointing out things
he'd not thought to consider (the actual recorded testimonies of people
like Martin Harris and the eight witnesses) but upon realizing that this
was not my job as a missionary and representative of Jesus Christ, the
Spirit stayed my tongue and I let my companion invite him to read the
Book of Mormon and pray about it. There was this moment when he was
talking in impartial detail about the martyrdom of Joseph and I felt
this sweet and strong spiritual confirmation in my heart that Joseph
Smith truly was a prophet of God, who restored the fulness of the gospel
of Jesus Christ. It was like a shield sprang up around us, and it was a
strange and beautiful experience. The crazy thing though: the guy's
daughter had been sitting with us the whole time, reading a Restoration
pamphlet, and when I asked her about it she said she really like the
story about the boy who was lacking wisdom, cause she related to him.
She couldn't even remember the boys name, in spite of her father having
slandered it for a straight hour, and the only explanation I've come up
with for this is that there had been an angel standing behind her the
whole time, covering her ears. She's the reason we found this
household.
Sunday evening, we did a crazy thing and followed a
woman we'd tracted into who invited us to her Baptist church, for the
evening worship. The preacher was a bit loud, a bit excited, good with
words, had some nice points about humility and repentance, though it at
times sounded like he was advertising prayer or leading a Jesus pep
rally, and when he invited us to "bow our heads" it was really hard to
pray when he kept talking and telling us what to pray for. Some of the
songs were nice, and I felt the Spirit during one of the contemporary
gospel hymns. They projected the lyrics and a live band played a long,
like a congregational karaoke, and it's been stuck in our heads all day
today... "I'll rise up like the eeeeagle, and I will soar with You, Your
Spirit leads me on, in the power of Your looooooove..." The people
there were totally nice though, and let us share their potluck following
the service. I admit: I am a fan of the Baptist potluck.
| Rain! |
| Sometimes I stare at these lines til they start to move |
1. The G family. We'd made a return appointment
with them, and when we showed up for it, they were all there, waiting
for us, and had us sit around the table so we could tell them what makes
our church different. The dad, young guy, recently got his family back
into going to church and the Restoration interested him because he saw a
documentary about how books were taken out of the Bible. His mother
was even there, who was as interested in researching religions as he is.
They eagerly took a Book of Mormon to study.
3. Ash the agnostic. Super sweet girl, was the
trenchcoat-wearing, anime-loving, art-major type, and believes that a
higher power must have preserved her in a car wreck so she could be a
mother to the baby she has now. We shared about the pre-earth life, our
purpose on earth, our relationship to God, which is something she said
she's wondered about. And she loved that we didn't judge her in all her
quirkiness and was excited to have us return. Minutes after leaving
her, we met another agnostic young woman who made a return appointment
with us. I feel like "agnostic" is another word for "golden
investigator." These are the first I've met since being in the South.
We continue to meet with Jaco, and he continues to
ask us really good questions. How does Christ "set us free"? How are
we both "of God" and "with God"? How do you use the individual spirit
to connect with other people? We do the best we can, but I think he may
complicate things more than he needs. Someday, God as his loving
Heavenly Father will become real to him and everything else will click.
That's the hope. In the meantime, we still feel like best friends, the
three of us, and we love him to bits according to Sister Creager's
definition: "Love - constant anxiety for the eternal welfare of another
person's soul."
| guests at the Baptist |
In sacrament on Sunday, the six of us
missionaries sang the EFY medley, "As Sisters in Zion" and "We'll Bring
the World His Truth." The ward loved it, despite our amateur voices,
because the Spirit was strong. It got me thinking how at many points in
my life, all I wanted was to be part of something great or to do
something noble. And here I am. This is it. We are as the army of
Helaman. We are the Lord's missionaries. And we get this wonderful
promise:
88 And whoso areceiveth you, there I will be also, for I will gobbefore your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my cSpirit shall be in your hearts, and mine dangels round about you, to bear you up. [D&C 84:88]
They're everywhere. And you all get this same promise of companionship too. Awesome, huh? :]
Sincerely,
Sister Valdez
Week 29: Let Your Heart
| Happy Valentines day! |
| Sleepoverrr |
Wednesday night: Lesson with Jaco. Commits to live
commandments. Lessons are technically complete. Confirm baptismal
interview date/time.
Thursday morning: Receive text that Jaco
will not make it to today's interview. Missionaries drop everything,
rush to his house in panic. Teach lesson addressing common anti-Mormon
remarks he came across. Heavily testify of the joy of the restored
gospel. Jaco prays for an answer, agrees to be baptized.
Thursday night: Receive text that Jaco is actually still undecided. Answer accepted.
Friday
afternoon: Lesson with Jaco. Discuss the plan of salvation and make no
mention of baptism. Jaco asks when he can have his interview. Because
he's decided to be baptized. Missionaries freak out.
Friday night: Receive apology text. Jaco cannot make a decision. Missionaries want to cry.
Saturday morning: Receive text saying Jaco will be at his scheduled interview. Missionaries are confused.
Saturday afternoon: Jaco goes to his interview. Fervent prayer. Both
Jaco and interviewer conclude that he needs more time. Missionaries
relieved that a decision has been made.
Sunday: Scheduled baptism does not occur. Missionaries try not to think about it.
Current status: Cool with it. Still teaching Jaco. This time, from the ground up.
By
the end of all this, poor bishop, who's barely been bishop for six
days, was probably tired of my calls. "Baptism Sunday!...actually, it's
being postponed...no wait it's back on!...ooh just kidding it's not.
Our bad." I thought Heavenly Father was done testing me for patience,
but apparently I've more to learn. By this time next year, I will be
the most patient person you ever met. Fo realz.
I thank goodness we had something to distract us
this week apart from routine work, i.e. we moved! Sister Creager and I
now have our own apartment in Florence, so we don't have to waste miles
traveling to our area and can walk/bike when we don't have the car (we
share with the Richland missionaries). We're two days into bike week
now and it's killin. We're gonna get so fit. I've been in a foursome
apartment since the start of my mission, so it being just us two is
quite different, but I like it. Lots of space to stretch out and
scatter possessions, and lots of quiet in which to ponder. The mission
gave us new furniture and I learned how to build a table! Also, chairs.
But those took a few tries. Only downers were our toilet wouldn't
stop running, but Sis Creager fixed it like a boss with a rubber band
and a rock, and today our power was out, so I'm praying the apartment
peeps figure that out before all our perishables perish or I have to try
to shower in the dark.
Cool fact: I got to work J-town! Tuesday was
exchanges with the Sister Training Leaders and I went tracting in
Jackson with Sister McGrath, and awesome bubbly sister I knew in Shreve.
It was so fun to be with her again. She bought me a donut because
she's awesome. We found a couple of friendly, humble families in one
neighborhood, both with little babies. Cool thing about babies: they're
super close to the veil and most of them recognize us missionaries as
representatives of Christ, I'm 97% sure of it. Before we left, one of
the families' little ones was staring at me intently through the window
and I whispered to him "I know you know who we are - tell your parents
to let us come back!"
| Rawr. |
52 Behold, my beloved brethren, remember the words of your God; pray unto him continually by day, and give athanks unto his holy name by night. Let your hearts brejoice. [2 Nephi 9]
I found this scripture when we were waiting
for Jaco to come out of his interview. The thought had occurred to me:
Find a reason to rejoice. Find a scripture on the commandment to be
happy. And I found this one. If you remember the mercy and promises of
God, if you remember to counsel with Him throughout the day and thank
Him for the numerous things you received by His hand when it's over,
then I think you'll find you have much to be happy about. So don't keep
yourself from the joy of knowing that your Eternal Father has got your
back. Don't keep your heart confined to the passing sorrows of the
moment. Let it rejoice. You have every reason to.
Sincerely,
Sister Valdez
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Week 28: Heaven's Eyes
Sister Creager and I have heard many an inspiring conversion story from members who were golden and saw miracles throughout the process. A book Sister Sellers gave me called "Finding the Elect of God" says that no matter where your area is, there are "five people ready to be baptized right now, today." People already prepared and waiting for us. We just have to find them. Even after meeting our recommended tracting quota, and having found no one promising, we continued in our search yesterday singing a song from our district leader. "Looking for the one! Looking for the one! Looking for the one who's looking for usss who's looking for truuuuuth!" Helps us get our smiles back just in time for another doorslam-to-the-face.
Unrelated thought: We listened to the Prince of Egypt soundtrack maybe 39 times this week while driving and during this time, something fascinating occurred to me: this story really happened. Moses was a real person. The Red Sea actually parted at the touch of a staff and legions of believers really were delivered out of bondage and out of the hands of a terrible totalitarian economy. Isn't that awesome!?!?!? There's something about hearing it in music that makes it all the more incredible. Poor Moses with his stutter who had could have been a prince except he was adopted (also he killed someone) and then has to go back to this court of haters and tell the monarch, "Um, all those people you're working to death are my family please find someone else to build your pyramids and let them go maybe?" and then yeah. You know the rest. He was so noble, that Moses. And he certainly didn't think himself so, but God saw something in him that no one else did. So it is with us. Heavenly Father asks us to do crazy things sometimes and were like "um wut?" and He's like "I wouldn't ask you if there wasn't a way." And then boom - the enemy army drowns.
Florence is a great place for deep thinking. The walks between houses, particularly in backwoods neighborhoods, are longer than I'm used to, and there's no shortage of poetic surroundings. Crumbling wooden shacks, gravel roads, marshy woods, floral wallpaper, ancient cars with fading paint, myriads of wind chimes, and more stars than I can count on two hands when the sun goes down (and sometimes giant bear-dogs that barrel into you and chew on your arm). But the best are the lessons we've been having nearly every evening in a little trailer with Jaco*. They're what keep me going.
Teaching him feels like I'm just testifying to my friend. He's around our age, he's Mexican (I've been waiting my whole mission to teach someone Hispanic!) and when we talk, we're all on one level, like college colleagues or something. In fact, he talks and thinks and reasons almost exactly like a friend I had in college, the conversations with whom I now realize were a prequel to these lessons with Jaco. He's a very critical thinker, has a good understanding of both logic and faith and when the two come together in the questions he asks, it's got my mind running on full-speed in high performance mode and my spirit repeating my most frequently used six word prayer "Father help Father help Father help!" when I'm so close to being confounded. But since being in Florence, I've been continuously surprised by how articulate my answers to obscure questions sound and I've backed myself up with way more scripture references than I realized I knew. Pretty crazy what the Holy Ghost can do when you just do your part to study and then let him take over.
After a long discussion on what truth is and how one finds truth according to our own understanding and experiences (meaning without just repeating what the scriptures say - Jaco really pushes me to my limits sometimes) he basically asked for our testimonies: "Well what do you personally believe?" Sister Creager and I then shared the few simple truths we hold most precious in our hearts of the personality of God, the divinity of the Savior, and the reality of the Restoration, and whoosh, there was the Spirit. It's rough to get an intellectual to understand feelings and the way that the Spirit speaks, especially with worldly man-made philosophies in the way. But at the end of the day, all we can do is teach, testify, and trust.
11 Therefore, the aredeemed of the Lord shall breturn, and come with csinging unto Zion; and everlasting joy and holiness shall be upon their heads; and they shall obtain gladness and joy; sorrow and dmourning shall flee away.
No matter what happens next, (i.e. whether Jaco keeps his baptismal date or not), it's a wonderful and redeeming feeling indeed to know that heaven is using little insignificant you to do quiet and significant things.
Sincerely,
Monday, February 10, 2014
Week 27: Viva Firenze!
| Good old Dalton came to say goodbye |
| Farewell, my lovely roommates |
| On the transfer van |
| Saw my mom in Monroe! |
There's this quote by Brigham Young in Preach My Gospel that has had occasion to pop into my head: "If you go on a mission to preach the Gospel with lightness and frivolity in your hearts, looking for this and that, and to learn what is in the world [...] you will go and return in vain. Let your minds be centered on your missions."
Every once in awhile I'll step out of the apartment, usually when my Canon A-I film camera is in hand, and this quote will come to mind, as though the presence of the camera-in-hand has got me "looking for this and that" and I'll panic - "Oh no! Lightness and frivolity! Get thee hence! No more touristy thoughts! Stop looking at the trees! I know there's a lot of them, but you're here to work!" I mean, I'm sure it's not that bad. But I do have to watch myself constantly, lest my fascination with the picturesque South override my focus. The quote made me realize though, why I was not called to Italy as I had hoped. The suppression of my natural urge to take pictures of everything in sight would have driven me bonkers. However, a funny thing happened last week where I finally left the city I'd been calling home for half a year and was assigned to labor in the next best place to Florence, Italy..... Florence, Mississippi :] So now I'm here in good old Firenze, as the Italianos would call it. What's more, I'm back with two of my dearest friends! Sister Creager, who I was with in the MTC, is my companion again, and we live with Sister Ray (one of my roommates my first transfer in Shreveport) and her comp Sister Diehl (who also came out same time as me). At transfer point, we saw all the sisters we came out with and had an MTC reunion with much hugging and screaming.
Florence is small and pretty and tame, many more woods, much more space between houses, and noticeable milder people than those I've previously encountered knocking doors on a Sunday afternoon. In fact, yesterday was no ordinary Sunday as you sports fans would know. As if I needed another reason to hate on football (i.e. the one religion the entirety of the South can agree on) yesterday was Super Bowl Sunday and I was scared out of my pants to attempt any form of uninvited proselyting at the risk of being raged at by large gatherings of possibly-intoxicated already-riled-up fanatics. All during church, I tried not to think about what may or may not happen that afternoon, and focus on the fact that we had two investigators and a less active at church (I know right?! the work here is bumpin) and the lesson on Adam&Eve, the Fall, and Agency that Sister Creager and I were assigned to teach the 10 yr olds in Primary (which was bomb, just fyi). But when we got dropped off on our corner, a street looking very much like Rameumptom Row, even bleaker because of the gray and drizzle, it all got frighteningly real. But guess what? God is still merciful.
We'd previously designed to tract a street called Duckworth. Yes, Duckworth. What's a Duckworth? Two lesson and three Books of Mormon, that's what. Hollaaa! It was miraculous. First a man let us in. Yes, let us in. Oh you have a spiritual message? Ok sure, whatev. And we shot out a Restoration lesson with my cup demonstration (basically you build Christ's church, remove the foundation which is prophets and apostles [Ephesians 2] and watch the church fall, build it up again after the story of Joseph Smith and the first vision, boom the church of Jesus Christ restored). Another man who looked tired and jaded (a golden combination) took a Book of Mormon after we vehemently promised him it would change his life. And then another man let us in at the end of the street, and HIS WHOLE FAMILY sat down to listen to us give the same lesson with the cups. They committed to read the Book of Mormon, to put our promise to the test, and see if this fantastic story we tell and claim we make isn't true. I know it is. And I know they can know it too. And we totally taught a family on first contact on Super Bowl Sunday while tracting. That never happens. But that's what you get when your companion fasts to find a family. Great things are coming to pass in this town.
I'll give you a rundown of life lately:
I spent my first morning going down a list and making phone calls to complete strangers that may or may not want to hear about the gospel. I had this moment of "This is so not normal. A year ago, I wouldn't pick up the phone to call my own dentist."
| An army of church-cleaners! |
My first night, we visited a man who had already rejected the missionaries when they knocked on his door, but now had a requested a Book of Mormon and had his whole family there to listen to our brief spiel on it. What caused the change of mind? His LDS friends online had challenged him to check it out. Members are everything.
Same day, we followed up with a woman who'd said she was interested in learning about other religions, and she'd actually read the first chapter of Nephi in the last two days! We taught her about the Restoration and Joseph Smith, in between interruptions by her boyfriend's drunk friend on the couch beside us who probably is still not convinced that we are NOT Jehovah's Witness.
I helped teach a very recent convert about the Priesthood, at which he so humbly insisted that he wasn't worthy to bless the emblems of Christ's body. He called the higher priesthood the "Mel-cheese-idek." I tried so hard not to laugh until two hours later, when Sister Creager would have to endure my rolling-on-the-floor giggle fit. "aaahah...haha...mel-cheeeese- idek.."
| Six months! |
I hit six months last Friday! SIX MONTHS. Can you believe that? A third of my mission, done. Since Sister Diehl and Sister Creager came out with me, we all got to celebrate together with too much fried food and a stomach full of regret. I don't feel much different. Just with more experience under my belt, and a firmer testimony, and what the mission president calls "spiritual grit" - the ability to bounce back after emotionally/spiritually trying days.
So I guess there has been some change. Sister Ray says I look different from the greenie that came to live with her in Shreve last August. Considering I don't think I've aged in four years, I'd say that's pretty significant. You won't find any lightness or frivolity in this heart. You also won't find nearly as much fear, either. Still working on that balance between being cheerful and being focused, but I think I've found the solution. Hope.
Wherefore, whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God. [Ether 12:4]
No matter where I make port in this mission, so long as my anchor, my hope, is in Christ and his promises, my resolve may be sure: nothing will sink us. Viva Firenze! Viva Israel!
Sincerely,
Sister Valdez
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